English to Russian Art/Literary Poetry & Literature W Bruce Cameron novel, A

After driving for many hours, I sat up in my cage because for the second time on the car ride, the smells were familiar. Eventually the car stopped and I waited patiently in my crate to be let out, but CJ and Trent just sat in their seats.
“Okay?” Trent said.
“I don’t know. I don’t know if I want to see her.”
“Okay.”
“No,” CJ said, “I mean, whenever I see her I just wind up feeling bad about myself. Is that terrible? She’s my mother.”
“You get to feel however you feel.”
“I don’t think I can do it.”
“Okay then,” Trent said.

разговор ведется между парнем и девушкой. они подъехали к дому матери девушки, но девушка не решается зайти к ней. у них очень сложные отношения.
мать всегда доминировала над ней, но в то же время никогда не давала любви.
в данном случае "feeling bad about myself" означает "чувствую неполноценность", "вину, что не была хорошей дочерью"?